Friday, July 22, 2005

**Amazing restlessness**

I am anxious. Summer is past half over. I have a lot to do. Don't want to do any of it. Feeling the need to hit the road.

This happens to me every summer, typically sometime in July, when I realize that I could be perfectly happy never teaching another class and just continuing my career in a continuous state of summer break. The campus is truly its most lovely when there are no students. I am almost schizophrenic in the way I think about work and careers, moving lightning fast between ambition and whatever constitutes its opposite. So, while I am very jazzed to start law school in a year, it is agonizing to think about preparing my fall syllabi. Instead I think about Montana, Wyoming, New Mexico, Idaho, Colorado, British Columbia and Alberta and all the places I could wander instead of updating computer operating systems for my video editing suites.

In 3.5 weeks, I put my daughter on a plane to Ecuador for 8 months and trek with my son back east to drop him off at college. I rented his room to a student for the semester, but she is so busy, I don't imagine her being around too much. For the most part it will be just me and the dog who spends most her days like this:



On the other hand, say the word "treat" and:

Thursday, July 21, 2005

**We got video!**

Dear Sarah was kind enough to load my Yellowstone videos on her site so that you can view them.

The first one is of steam rising off the thermal area at sunset

This next one is of Grotto Geyser, also steaming away in the sunset.

This video is of a little pool, about 24 inches in diameter boiling away.

Finally this video is of Lone Star Geyser erupting.

I think what I like best about these videos is the audio. Someone needs to go to Yellowston and collect audio of the natural environment and record a CD. If you close your eyes while you are in these basins, especially late at night when there are no other humans around, the variety of sound is amazing.

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

**Company's coming**

Tonight, late, my niece is arriving for a three week visit. She is 14. 14 was a good year for me. It will be fun to see what she is like. I remember getting my horse at 14. I credit this rather moody mare with keeping me away from drugs, alcohol and gangs. Boys too, as I preferred her company to theirs and they got the message very quickly. With all deference to the fun I have with my globe-trotting traveling companion niece, this young teenager holds a special place in my heart as I was by my sister's side at her birth. I have memories of her mother holding up obscenely well through labor, possibly the result of numerous trial pain killers they administered (my sister had an immediate and highly focused interest in participating in any pain reducing drug trials as her labor progressed. I was envious). I remember my brother-in-law excusing himself several times during the final stages. I like to muse he was tossing his cookies outside the room. Anyway, I hold the honor of being the first family member to see her, even before her mum.

Two weeks into her visit the rest of the family joins us. We will have a household of 8-9 people with a futon, queen bed and two twin beds. Time to pull out the sleeping bags.

Sunday, July 10, 2005

**... and the rest of the story**

Ok, I have a script due TODAY and today ends in about 90 minutes. Still, I feel more obligated to follow through on my promise to finish this story, even though the proceeds from the video that will result from this script will go a long way toward paying my son's first semester of college.

So, picking up where I left off, A. and I walked around the Old Faithful Basin, getting reacquainted with each other and this place we have come to over the years. This first photo is of the Firehole River towards the lower end of the basin on the path to Morning Glory Pool. I just love watching the steamy spots all along the river.

The next morning we hiked more around the basin, spent quite a bit of time with the potter in residence whom we have come to know. He is the owner and creative force behind Fire Hole Pottery. His main studio is in Bozeman, MT, but he has spent the summers over the past 25 years plying his trade in front of eager tourists at the Old Faithful Lodge gift shop.

A. and I traded pieces, with me getting the banded souffle, pictured here, but in the red color that you can see in the teapot. Carl was kind enough to sign them with secret messages:). I should probably confess, that I have a lot of his work. We had dinner with him that evening at the Old Faithful Snow Lodge, something that also is becoming somewhat of a tradition each time we go to Yellowstone.

The second morning (okay, early afternoon), we headed off to Lone Star Geyser. It is about a three mile hike along the Firehole River. We arrived about two hours before the next scheduled eruption, so we wandered along the river exploring some of the "off the beaten track" thermal features. We spend some time sitting on this bridge overlooking the river, munching on lunch, reveling in the effectiveness of our mosquito spray. We were here some years ago and the kids played around in the river for a while. Never remember the mosquitos so intense. On the other hand, the last time I was at Lone Star I was driven away from the river at a frantic run by a relentless swarm of deerflies who were undeterred by bug spray.


Below are some pictures of Lone Star erupting. I have a movie of the eruption, complete with audio, but I don't know how to load it. Sarah, help me out! Can I do it on blogger?





This next photo was taken during our final evening when we repeated the walk down to Morning Glory Pool. We originally planned a romantic dinner at the Snow Lodge, but decided to make use of the bottle of Oregon Pinot Noir I ferried to Yellowstone, bought some cheese and crackers and headed for our favorite thermal pool. On the way we spent some time at Grotto Geyser. Most of the time it just steams and spits, with occasional eruption of about 20 feet.


We passed a few other hot thermal features, some with the sunset reflected in the steaming water.


We ended up at Morning Glory still reflecting colors in the fading sunset.



We hung out in the dark and drank our wine, and it was there, that I made my pitch for settling down together. Well this guy who many, including me sometimes, thought he was "just not that into me," agreed it was time to do the deed. Hey, it only took about 10 years, but it appears we are going for it. Don't know exactly when (ironically, I have to investigate if and how it might impact my kids college aid), but we figure it will have to be at Yellowstone. Probably at Morning Glory Pool.

We thought about having some kind of ceremony at Lone Star Geyser, but honestly everyone who might venture to the country's first national park to celebrate with us would have to be doused with Cutter and not be bothered by clouds of mosquitos circling anything that exhales. We probably would have to give out canisters of bear spray as gifts. While that seems perfectly reasonable to me, I know that some of my family, who lean towards more suburban lifestyles might balk at a three mile walk/bike ride among mosquitos, deerflies and signs warning about bears, and might prefer instead the handicap accessible, 1 mile walk/ride on pavement to a more civilized thermal pool, like Morning Glory.

The morning we left, we wondered the back side of the basin and I caught this final image of a spitting pool with the fantastic Old Faithful Inn in the background.



That is where we stayed... in the old part of the Inn, I might add. Small old log room, with a few light bulbs, a sink, no phone and a communal bathroom/shower down the hall. The Inn is only open for two months this summer as it is undergoing a three year renovation. They have ripped up the floor and replaced it with temporary plywood. They have sunk the area around the fireplace about 4 inches. The lobby is broken up a bit more, the reception desk expanded and every single vertical support log has been removed, one by one, split so a metal rod can be inserted and put back together. The purpose is to increase the Inn's ability to weather a significant earthquake (one of which actually damaged three of the four hearths in the massive stone fireplace that is the centerpiece of the lobby). We actually arrived on opening day for this summer's abbreviated season (normally 5 months long). We are tempted to return for the last day and party with the regular staff (many who know A.) in the infamous Bear Pit Lounge. However, I don't think I have the constitution to survive such a night anymore. Don't want any memories of Yellowstone including paying homage to the porcelain goddess.

Okay, 30 minutes until tomorrow. Back to the script. There you have it. I didn't even mention the Supreme Court nomination. Such restraint.

**More is coming, I swear**

But not until later in the week as I am outa here horsecamping for several days. I need a break from everything. And the pup... she needs to get out and be a dog for a while.

Friday, July 08, 2005

**This is Big**

Yes, that is about the only way I can describe this trip to Yellowstone. Epic. Big. Life altering. I almost don't know where to begin. Let me begin by explaining why I went. My Yellowstone trip was to reconnect with the longest relationship I have ever had. Longer than my marriage. Even at the lowest point, it was better than my marriage. Together or apart, my feelings for him have not wavered. While together, I enjoyed the happiest times of my life, while apart I was the lonliest. When we focused on the important parts of life, the relationship flourished. When pride, fear of rejection, selfishness got in the way, we drifted apart.

I went to Yellowstone to break the cycle. I went to Yellowstone to do the only thing I thought I could do to hold onto what I think is real and enduring. I went to Yellowstone to... well read on.

I left about 4:30 am on Friday the 1st of July. Still dark, but necessary so that I could be in the park before dark. Because some of you may not realize how beautiful the Pacific Northwest really is, here are some pictures of the Columbia Gorge as the sun was rising.



Eastern Oregon was just as beautiful. I don't know if those not from this area realize how different the terrain is there. The west side of the Cascades are like a rainforest, but the eastern side is framed by beautiful ranching valleys and mountain peaks. This valley is particularly beautiful:



As will become abundantly clear, I spent the 14 hours of my drive feeling pretty nervous. I was definitely putting myself out there. Risky. Vulnerable. But no choice in the matter.

Arriving in Yellowstone I came upon a beautiful double rainbow (yes, I am always looking for signs), the end of which dipped down into the Old Faithful basin - just where I was headed. I globbed onto this bit of symbolism because, of course, I was looking for all the ammunition I could find to be able to say to me... and to A. ... this was meant to be. It was a beautiful sight...




Seeing A. was like seeing my oldest friend. It was like no time had passed and everything was timeless... all at the same moment. More to come....